Ashwolf's Werecard

From: "Ashwolf ^..^" (ashwolf@my-dejanews.com)

Human Name: Matthew Lopez 
Were Name:  Ashwolf 
Phenotype: Im sure you can figure it out 
Shifting Ability: In dreams...still fuzzy on what everyone considers an M-shift,  
	but in my opinion, I do this as well 
Birthdate: Nov.9, 1977

Birthplace: Newport, Rhode Island
Home Territory: half in Mobile Al, and other in Pensacola, Fl
Dream Territory: Northern Minnesota

Physical Description, Human: 5'9&3/4...165lbs. Curly brown hair, reddish goatee 
	(sometimes), brown eyes. Athletic build from a lifetime of  playing sports. 
	Been this height andweight since 9th grade(Im a senior at college now) so 
	those milk commercials are full of crap. 
Physical Description, Were: predominantly charcoal with grey highlights...average 
	sized wolf(cant weigh myself in a dream). White markings around eyes
Human Career: full time student...part time referee, electronics salesman, and volunteer

Hobbies/Interests: all sports...golf, tennis, basketball, softball, flag football, 
	volleyball, racketball, boxing. Getting back into drawing, and starting to 
	lift weights as well. Photography too, when I have the money. I dabble in 
	writing little stories and poems, as well as a few hastily thrown together 
	rap songs
Favorite Movies: Empire of the Sun *sniffle*, Rain Man *definitely*, Austin Powers 
	*yeah baby*, A League of Their Own *reow*, Caddy Shack *classic*, 
	Robin Hood *animated*
Favorite Were-movie: I like AWIL and AWIP, as well as The Howling (1st one,obviously), 
	but I prefer the animated and live action movies like Balto *I love that one 
	scene*, White Fang, etc.
Favorite Literature: Anyhting with wolves in it
Favorite Were Literature: Havent really read that many, but my favorite is 'The Passion'
Favorite Art: Ansel Adams, Brandenburg, and old pictures such as in the turn of the century.
Favorite Were-art: Too much to choose from
Favorite Quote: Tie: "Id like that in a box" DJ TurnTable, Pillichody Posse; '98
	"Giddy-up!"  Kramer, Seinfeld; episodes 1-169
Favorite Were Saying/Quote: May Wolf ever walk beside you and grant you rest in his shadow,
	May his paws ever guide your path  and your howls be heard by all.  -Windwolf
Favorite Personal Quote: "Dont you ever hurt a wolf, I may take it personally!"
	To my roommates who are both hunters
Favorite Song/Bands: No favorite bands...Top 5 songs...5) West Side, TQ  4)Can
	You Feel the Love Tonight, Elton John 3) Rappers delight, Sugarhll Gang 
	2)Middle-Class Superstar(parody of Ghetto Superstar, self created), 
	Pillichody Posse 1) Jack and Diane, JC Mellencamp
Favorite Season: Fall
Favorite Holidays: Festivus and Halloween

Preferred Prey: Whoever is on the court
Hunting Tips: Look left, pass right
Preferred Method of Attack: Fade away
Favorite Non-Were Mythological Beast: anyone on Jerry Springer
Feelings Toward Vampires: cant say, dont know any
Feelings Toward Normal Humans: Fine...who else is going to pay me?


Personal Therianthropy:

	Growing up, I was never a loner. I was athletic, so I was friends 
with that crowd, and I was somewhat intelligent(hope I spelled that right), 
so I fit in with that crowd. I liked any type of music and ate any type of 
food(too much of it in one point of my life). I could basically blend in 
any crowd...but that was just it...I would only blend in. I was never the 
leader of any particular group, but I was always considered one of the 
group...many groups. But I still knew there was something different about 
me, something that separated me from all the groups, something someone else 
had to share.  And until stumbling onto AHWw, my search had been in vain.

	I guess it all started when I was about 6. At that time, I would have 
a recurring dream...I was walking home from my friends house late at night. 
I passed over the bridge and I would hear a noise from behind a bush. I went 
to the bush to see what it was, and there was a huge injured werewolf(anthro, 
The Howling style). I wasnt afraid of him, and took him to my house to help
him. I patched him up and he promised he would always protect me, no matter 
what. This same dream came up many times when I was young, but eventually 
faded out. 

    A few years later I had reemerging thoughts about changing myself into a 
werewolf, and would actually do this before any athletic endeavor I faced. 
This lasted from when I was 9 to about 12.  Now, I had always had a deep 
fascination with wolves, but it wasnt untill I was around 14 or 15 that I 
had a dream including a real wolf. It was much like my childhood dream with
the exception that it was the true wolf that promised to protect me, and 
not a werewolf. Now, instead of trying to change into an anthro-werewolf 
before a game, I imagine the wolfs strength growing inside of me.

	My love for the wolf was set in stone one night while I was at a 
highschool party. The house was on the water of a lake, and there was a 
long pier.  It was such a beautiful night, The sky was split in half...
on one side there was a distant thunderstorm, and I could see the lightning 
jumping to the ground and from cloud to cloud...the other side was a full moon. 
I was alone on the pier, everyone else was sleeping, and had lots of time 
to think about my life, and wolves. It was all that I could think about. 
After about an hour of soul searching, I reached the conclusion that my 
life would not be complete without making wolves a major part of my life. 
I stood up, and howled long and true(at 4 am). I did this for about 10 
minutes, got all the dogs in the neighborhood quite upset at me...and 
Im still not sure if anyone knew what I had done. It was a night I will 
never forget. If I only had a camera, Id show you all how immaculate 
that night was!	

	After realizing how deep my love of wolves really was, I decided I 
wanted to be a veterinarian with the sole purpose of helping wolves. I 
worked at a vets office, and quickly became disillusioned by the arrogance 
of the doctors. I decided to just read up on wolves myself in highschool, 
and perhaps study them in the wild. Now in my senior year of college, 
I dont know if I could do that. Studying wild wolves requires a subjective 
opinion with no biases...I am extremely biased. I figured my best bet 
may be in rehabilitation and reintroduction, so I am volunteering at a 
center that gives me experience in the field...plus vet school is not 
entirely out. 

	As of recently, I have been exploring my therianthropy through dreams 
and meditation, although the meditation is coming along more slowly. Ive 
always had doubts as to whether or not I should continue this lifestyle of 
worship to the wolf, but then that same night, Ill have a dream and realize 
I couldnt live without him. I become quite emotional when I look at a certain 
picture I have in my room...Its an 18x24 of a wolf head staring straight into 
my eyes. I sit there and stare at it, talking to it in my head, asking him 
questions..Why am I here...Will I find you? Sometimes Ill weep when I think 
about him and how beautiful he is, how it must feel to touch him, have his 
breath warm my skin. My desire to become him is almost overwhelming me now, 
and I sometimes become envious that I am not...going into periods of slight 
depression. But then I will flip through my books of wolf pictures and realize 
that I could never admire him so much if I were him physically...so I try to 
emulate his ways behaviorally, I let him teach me. I let my dreams do the rest.

	'Is all of this merely coincidence, or were the explorations of the
human race carried on the backs of wolves?'
                                     -Brandenburg