Metawolf's Werecard

From: metawolf_13@hotmail.com

Human Name: Louie Morales
Were Name: Metawolf
Phenotype: timber wolf
Shifting Ability: Spiritual, Mental, and (like many others) aspiring to P-shift
Birthdate: February 13, 1983; New Moon

Birthplace: El Paso, Texas
Home Territory: El Paso County, Texas
Dream Territory: An expansive, coniferous forest within the Gila mountains 
	of New Mexico.

Physical Description, Human: I'm 5'9" and still growing, 163 pounds (last 
	time I checked), have a dark complexion, wavy black hair, and dark brown 
	eyes.
Physical Description, Were: I am 6'3 with a muscular build and wide shoulders. 
	I have black fur, except on my chest and abdominal area which are covered 
	in dark grey fur. My head and tail have the structure equal to that of a 
	timber wolf and I have no claws since I have a chronic nail, and claw 
	bitting habit.
Human Career: Unless you consider being a student in high school a career, 
	I have none. Even though I do enjoy chemistry, especially when I get 
	to blow things up in class. "toothy grin"

Hobbies/Interests: Chemistry (What else?), rock and crystal collecting, computer 
	graphics, Email :), poetry, philosophy, writting, and spending endless 
	hours in the desert.
Favourite Movie(s): The Fifth Element, Stargate, Dragonheart
Favourite Literature: Anything written by Piers Anthony
Favourite Art: computer generated images 
Favourite Saying/Quote: "Sanity is controlled by those who are most insane" 
	(It feels good to be in control, doesn't it? ) 
Favourite Song/Band(s): Adiemus
Favourite Were Movie: Thuthfully, I have no idea.
Favourite Were Literature: If it deals with spirituality, i'll read it.
Favourite Were Art: "September Snow", Larry Fanning; photography of nature 
	scenes and wolves (Of Course)
Favourite Were Saying/Quote: "Often implausible NEVER impossible."
Favourite Were! Song/Band(s): Recordings of natural environments. (very relaxing)
Favourite Personal Quote: "Dubiousness is only in the mind."
Favourite Season: Fall and Winter (They're the only times when the desert heat 
	can't boil your brain.)
Favourite Holiday: Thanksgiving (The vast array of intriguing smells. Oh yeh, food!)

Preferred Prey: Antagonizing humans (in my mind's eye of course), beef, 
	chicken, and pork. 
Hunting Tips: Eat it warm, cold bully tends to be tough. "little smirk"
Preferred Method of Attack: Stalk silently, attack viciously! (the shock makes 'em stupid)
Favourite Non-Were Mythological Beastie(s): Phoenix
Feelings Toward Vampires: It pretty much breaks down to what they are 
	like individually.
Feelings Toward Normal Humans: Humanity as a whole is like a heard a ignorant cows. 
	They follow each other blindly without finding out the truth for themselves. 
	There are of course the rare excepti!ons who are open minded and intellectually
	curious.


Personal Therianthropy:

	You might want to get comfortable for the thesis of my life. 

	I had always been interested in werewolves and like many weres I was usually not 
included in most social circles. I had a better kinship with animals than with people. 
Granted I had friends who were as strange as I was, I still felt as if I were incomplete. 
For a long time I suppressed any impulse or emotion that I thought would only make me seem 
more separate.  I was fearful That if I deviated to far from "normal" I would become 
clinically insane. I held myself in mentally and spiritually. This was the way I had 
always been since I could remember, often being superficially content but never truly happy.

	Then I had a dream that appealed to the very essence of my soul, something I couldn't 
explain at the time. I saw myself from a third person perspective, unable to affect my actions. 
It began with !me walking down a street near my home during the time of day when the moon is 
clearly visible just before the sun sets. This is the time of day in which all my dreams take 
place. As I saw myself walk down the street away from the moon, I heard the distant howling of 
wolves. I looked toward the moon and then toward the sun, which was just beginning to set.
I looked back at myself and saw me walk farther down the street, toward the setting sun.  
I then heard the howling again, this time louder and closer. As the sun was beginning to go 
behind the mountains, I saw a pack of grey Timber Wolves running down the street toward my body, 
which refused to see them coming. The pack then attached my observed body to the ground. 
My perspective then changed and I saw through my eyes. I saw that the wolves were not attacking 
me but liking my face, as if greeting me. They then faded mysteriously, and I was alone. I got 
up and saw that the sun had set and the moon was the only! source of light. I turned toward the 
moon and saw what I was walking away from. Instead of an extending street I saw a coniferous 
forest full of smells and sounds that I had never heard before. I walked deeper into the forest, 
as if pulled toward an undisclosed location. I came to a tranquil stream and saw my reflection, 
or rather my other reflection. I saw the nature I was suppressing and before I could make a 
revelation of what I saw, I woke.

	The spiritual side of me then asserted itself within me. My interest in the metaphysical 
grew and I found some comfort in what I was learning.

	I learned about meditation, shamanism, magic, and other topics of spirituality. I also 
found I had an aptitude for controlling the energy within me. I was able to keep myself in 
good health using only my internal energy. I could focus energy within my body to create 
hot spots. I used this to face a occasional illness to keep from going certain places. Now, 
In !no way a i claiming to be psychic. I believe I do not incorporate such a potential. 
I simply have formidable control over my own spirit and a better touch with spirits than the 
normal human. I now know why.  I could change my frame of mind to suit my situations. That's 
when the were side of me began to surface. 

	Even this was not enough to get me to realize my true nature. For another two years 
I kept my were side hidden. Then when I changed schools, I finally met people who I 
believe I was destined to meet. I told them of my interest and they accepted my tendencies. 
About a month ago I found myself in a very stressful situation. However, I can't remember 
the details as to what. What I do remember is that I felt myself shape my energy and the 
energy around me into the form that I had seen so long ago in my dream. I saw myself as a 
werewolf. I was able to use an instinct and a strength I had not known I had. I did not 
accept this instantly, thinking it !was some form of shock brought on by too much physical 
and mental stress. However, I stopped fighting myself as I call it. Even though I consider 
and call my form of shifting an aura shift, because it involves my own energy field and it 
really doesn't seem to fit into any other category. Others may consider it a mental or a 
spiritual shift and I really don't mind since not even I know its exact nature. I told my 
friends I stopped fighting myself and ultimately told them I had lycanthropy, even though 
the thought of me having such initially frightened me. I then was able to completely accept 
all aspects of myself and achieved spiritual balance.

	I then decided to research my interest in werewolves. I discovered that I was not a 
insane and that there were other forms of shifting besides physical. I was elated to know 
that what I was doing was not some form of dilution. Then I found AHWw and became elated 
at the knowledge that I would not have to live as a wer!e in solitude. The rest is yet to 
be written by destiny.